Help Me Get My Inspiration Back!
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So yeah I've kinda been away for far to long I've been so focused on my driving and work, that I left my drawings. I was off last week and I've also been really down in the dumps for weeks now, really more months. And last week I thought to myself I'm getting into a rut, I had just failed my first driving test
and I hate work! I really hate it! I try and try there, and yeah I've been moving up and getting more responsibility, which I love, but we all get treated like crap by every one higher than us and those up there buts! Now I know most work places are like that but OMG, everyone at my work hates it apart from these people! It's my first proper job, but others older than me have said don't worry this is the worst place I have ever worked not everywhere is like this.
So I have to think that this place takes the biscuit! They seriously have done all there colleagues in, and they treat us like we have no rights. Then there's my friends the ones at work I had a few really close ones and lots that are friends and we all get along really well, that's like the only good thing about that place nearly every single person in there gets along, but lately I've noticed my so called really close friends only want me to be a close friend when it suits them, like they don't ask if I wanna go with them anywhere any more, but as soon as it's there birthday I Just Have to Come! and it makes me wonder why? I'm not good enough to go to the cinemar with I'm not good enough to go shopping or have a meal with, but your party! Oh I have to be there! Well I've noticed this and I'm not one of those people who give them many chances so I've kinda giving up with them. But I still have my 2 true friends there and we go places together when ever we have the chance
But I still really miss my best friend! We have been friends for almost 5years now and she is the best, but we live a bit of a distance away, which don't stop us trust me! But with our lives being busy, like I'm always stressed with work, trying to learn to drive, home life, my work friend and this flu I've seemed to have for ever lol. And herself with her work, home life, her friends and so on, we haven't been able to talk as much as we used to
But I know it'll be better soon and we will meet up soon and we won't stop chatting
Anyway I'm getting right off track now, but lets put it this way I've been in serious depression mode and I've been there before and that was a lot worse but this time I picked it up quicker and I found this past week my laptop and started drawing again, not like the odd times I did draw in the past few months I've been away, then I was really trying to develop my Human drawing skills I kinda sat there and just drew! I drew random things that were getting me back in the swing of things and showed me I'm not as bad as I thought and I have actually kinda thought myself how to draw humans
Which I was very exited by haha!
So I know my drawing seems to make me so much more happy and is like some sort of happy drug, most probably because it's my only hobby that I enjoy! So I was wondering If anyone would like to do an art trade or order a commission I'm still trying to save points there cheep dearest I'd go is 20points depending on how many characters and so on if your interested in that just message what you would like and I will tell you how many points it will cost. If you have a budget drop that in the note and I'll let you know what I can do for that price. Or if anyone knows of any challenges that I could do that would be grate!
I will let you all know that any commissions or trades I take may take a bit longer than I usually do them at as even though I hate it I still have work and my driving lessons kick back up soon and I gotta pass my next test! I just have too! It will hopefully get me outta that place and help me kick start my life a bit more
so I would say give me a few weeks.
Well thank you so much for listening to my rant, I needed to get that off my chest, & I hope to see some trades and Commissions come through. Oh and I will hopefully also try to do a comic for Kopa's Story: A Jungle Lion as I know loads of people like it and want to know more and wanted it in comic form, but I'm not the best at comics so... but if not I do wanna try and finish the story.
Thank you all,